“Your sin and flaws cannot stop your purpose”—Grace Community Church
I’m not as close to God as I could be and I am definitely that girl who is riddled with insecurities and feelings of worthlessness.
I find myself constantly looking at myself under a very huge microscope finding every reason that I am not worthy or enough. Oh gosh that is such a toxic mindset to have.
This past Sunday I went to church for my second time since I’ve been in Tennessee and let’s just say I am so grateful that my old roommate got me up to go! During the sermon I was zoned out per usual but then the pastor asked the entire congregation “Who told you were not enough?” That question grabbed my attention he continued on and said… “Just like God asked Adam and Eve ‘Who told you were naked?’” I had never taken the time to ponder the story of Adam and Eve I mean I knew the basics. Man and woman, woman eats fruit convinces man to eat and then get banished from the garden… welcome to the world of sin. Period.
But I learned Sunday that there is more. They were not thrown out of the Garden simply as a punishment… God threw them out because he had HOPE. When God approached the couple in the Garden they were hiding out of fear because “for surely you will die” God is not a vengeful God so he was not meaning that HE would kill them … he meant that the seeds the fruit would plant in their minds, hearts and spirits would kill them. They now knew they were naked, they now felt shame, and embarrassment. These things would kill the world.
His next question was “What fruit are you eating today” Are you eating the fruit from a tree of insecurity? Selfishness? Envy? Self-doubt? Infidelity? I guess the saying “You are what you eat” is true. If you are constantly feeding yourself these types of fruits those things will manifest themselves in your life.
He then asked: “If you craved an apple so badly and the ONLY apple you had was rotten wouldn’t you just throw it away? “ The first answer that came to my mind was “EWW obviously it’s going in the trash” In reality though, a lot of times we, yes myself included, are the kind of people that scrape the bad spot out, wash it off, and eat that metaphorical apple in our life.
So now I ask you why constantly feed on the poisoned fruit of your mind? Why constantly sit at the table and serve yourself these thoughts that are killing your mind and therefore killing your spirit